She approached my ear and I closed my eyes.
"You're so confident being his wife. Don't you know you've taken someone's dream? What a shame."
"To me," he said, and my knees were shaking.
"Kycine is far more suitable to be Blade's wife, or should I say her fiance. A while ago, you just came." You spoiled everything. " He said, and I sat down.
This can't be true. This is not the answer I wanted to hear. This is also not the answer I expected. The door opened and police came in, so did Blade. He attended to me.
"Alessia, are you okay?" He asked, but I moved away from his hold on me.
I sort of felt distant.
I was once in a place that I thought was long gone, pitch black.
lifeless
dull
I also don't understand why I chose to be here again and why I wasn't taken. The aircon wasn't turned on but it was so cold and I thought I couldn't breathe. There was so much chest pain and I can't explain why it hurts and what its source is. I hug my knees tight.
I'm not crying, but it hurts and I can't bring myself to cry. Is it because I didn't want to cry or is it because I was so tired and I don't know what to do? I'm also not comfortable with what will happen next.
I can still remember the ambiance of the scene, and I can't seem to get over what I heard and what happened.
"Kycine is far more suitable to be Blade's wife, or should I say, her fiance."
"Yes she was and when you came,
"You spoiled everything."
I shook my head. I still don't know what to do. My parents came but I just answered softly and told them that I'm okay even if I don't open the door for them. The last time I've been in this kind of situation was when I found out that my mom and dad pretended that it was okay with them all that I didn't ace the test. Then I decided to bake them a cake because they appreciated me so much and I'm happy, but before I arrive with their door open
How come his scores are like that? Aren't there enough tutors who come here every day? " My mom whispered, but I knew she was flustered.
"Do you think your son already has a boyfriend?" I'm telling you, Emelda, follow your son's every move. "
As I grasp the tray hard, making it not fall from my hand, I also suppress my crying and then Mom closed the door. I don’t know how I will feel. And I wish they had just been honest with me instead of releasing it like that. I also locked myself up and the only reason I was inside was because I told them that I hadn't gotten over the exam and they pretended to cheer me up. I don't know what's more painful, but from any angle I look at sin, maybe I didn't study so much to pass the exam, or maybe I was too complacent because of the amount of time I reviewed
I cried and cried until I couldn't take it anymore. I didn't feel hungry but I was dehydrated. They didn't even ask me if I was okay inside. My nanny came to deliver me food, and it was even more painful because they didn't want me to send food as a punishment for my loss, but I am glad that I am surrounded by kind people, so I went through it.
*knock*
"Your food is here. Are you okay there?" Blade shouted on the other side of my door.
I've been locked in my room for a few days and I don't know if I've taken a bath, and I was just staring at the window waiting for dawn to come and also at night.
I also don't know why I chose to shut up here instead of just asking Blade what Britney told me.
After that incident, I didn't talk to any of them and headed back home to their mom's house in my old room. He was visiting me eventually, but that's how I told him "I'm fine" and "I'll go out of this room too when I'm okay."
Those days were tough and I don't know what I can do to stop Blade from scratching me. The more he asks me, the more I'm out of shape and I don't want that. I don't know but I have a bigger choice. Just don't tell and let him guess on his own. I know it's wrong and it wasn't the right choice but I can't force myself to say what I'm going through if I'm just forced
As I watched her shadow in the space between the door and floor, I wondered, why does she keep asking me every day even though she has work? After that incident, I don't know what happened. I only know Britney was imprisoned but I don't know what the events leading up to
Blade asked me what Britney and I were talking about inside, but I didn’t answer her.
I lay down and just looked at the dot-shaped light scattered on my ceiling.
I stood up as I realized they were already opening my bedroom door and Blade exposed himself to me.
"Alessia, are you dumb? Why aren't you eating? "
"Are you sleeping? Why are you like this? "
He asked me a lot of questions, but I just focused on his appearance. I looked at him. He had lost some weight. I was also not happy. As I looked into his eyes, my heart began to ache and I turned myself away.
"What are you doing here? Didn't I tell you I didn't want to talk first? Why don't you understand? " I asked her
While holding my elbow, he turned me and hugged me. I didn't struggle and I felt the heat he was carrying. He took me away from himself and I saw him crying. And that's when I cried too. All I was holding out suddenly came out when I saw him crying.
"Can you stop this already? It hurts so much, Alessia."
And at this point, I regretted keeping everything and choosing to close myself off to him; I don't know, I hugged him and in the back of my mind, I was saying sorry, sorry because I went further than just telling him, everything.