104
Scared
Viktor.
I froze as a saw Papa at the door. What was he doing here? How did he find him? What did he want.
Just as I saw his face, memories of my childhood and everything I did because of him came flooding back.
So many families lost their loved ones, so many clans were destroyed, so many people had reason to cry because of me.
I froze in surprise and I wasn't able to say a word even when Landon confronted him.
"He is right, you need to leave," I finally summoned the courage to chase him away and I gulped.
Unable to hold Back the emotions welling up inside of me, I zoomed away, going into the restroom and resting on the sink.
Tears welled up in my eyes and I sit quietly trying to push back the tears. Why??
Why was Papa here?? Why did he have to come back into my life??
I switch on the top and scooped water into my hands so wash my face but the tears keep streaming down my face. I heard the door open and I knew it was Landon, but I kept my face down, trying to blink back the tears so he wouldn't see me crying.
"Are you okay??" He asked, and I suddenly raised up my head.
"Do I look okay to you?" I asked. Although I was too shocked to speak when I saw Papa, he should don't have interfered or stood up to him.
Papa was a dangerous man and the thing he hated the most was being stood up to. He might do something wrong to me.
"Vik-" I interrupted London immediately and I didn't expect all the words that came rolling out my mouth next.
Look Landon, for so many years, I've tried my best to live a secluded live as much as possible. I don't get involved in the matters of others and I don't appreciate it too." I took out a face towel and wiped my wet face
"I have kept this up for a long time until you showed up and since then you've showed an uncomfortable interest in my personal life and problem." He looked shock and I could hear his heart skipping at every word I said.
Why was I saying this?
"You are being too intrusive," I stated, immediately regretting everything I just said.
I shouldn't have said any of that. You look so hurt right now and it somehow also affected me.
"I'll see you later." He turned around to go, but I quickly grabbed his hand.
"I'm sorry," I apologized again and he turned around to face me.
"No, I've been really intrusive and I didn't realize. I get it," he stated even though he sounded hurt and it made me feel so bad.
Why am I like this?? When have I ever felt bad for pushing someone away? It was always for their own good, but I couldn't bring myself to do the same to Landon.
"No, I'm really sorry," I apologized again, "I.....I just didn't want you to see me like that."
"I understand." He nodded. He did?
No, he soesn understand what I mean. I've never let myself open up so much or get close to anyone before. I suspected the feelings I had, but I was confused.
"No, you don't."
"My Grandfather was a power thirsty man and a manipulator who used me as a weapon."
"For so long, he used me to defeat his enemies and get more power." I swallowed.
"When I finally snapped back to my senses, I ran away as far as I could from him. I survived on my own for so many years and I did everything I could to get rid of emotional attachments to anyone."
"It took me so many years to begin to open up to people, maybe right up to this moment," I said and I moved closer to him.
I stared at him and he seemed equally as nervous as I am.
"When my Grandfather was here earlier and you confronted him, seeing him again brought back all the painful memories, but when you confronted him, I was scared," I stated, "I was scared that he might do something bad to you."
Yes, I was scared, and I am still scared because Papa would not back down so easily after being spoken rudely to. His focus might be on me right now, but he will still find a way.
"And that was when I realized something. I realized how you feel about me." I paused and gulped. Right from the start, I knew that I had special feelings for you but I didn't understand probably because of two things.
I always avoided having any romantic connection I could have with someone and this was the first time that I would like a guy.
I liked Landon.
"I realized how I feel about you." He seemed shocked and nervous, and I was scared that he probably didn't have the same feelings or maybe I was pressuring him.
"It's alright," Landon replied softly and my eyes flickered to his lips.
"If you're not...ready." I quickly moved closer to him and kissed him.
He froze for a while before kissing me back passionately.
We both broke the kiss at the same time, resting our foreheads on each other and I smiled.
We both walked back to the sitting room and I sat down on a couch next to him. I smiled as I saw him toying with his fingers. I knew he had something on his mind that he wanted to ask, but because of everything I said earlier, he might not want to.
"You can ask what you want to ask." I smiled and he faced me immediately.
I smiled and faced him, "your special abilities. How do you have them??" He asked quickly and I smiled. I shifted closer to him and put my hand at the back of his head, pulling him closer.
"Let me show you." I leaned in towards him and kissed him.