Blake pov
Lying flat on the bed in the dark room , I look through my cat eyes at the door through which Dr Linzi has just left and sigh from complete physical and mental exhaustion . This day , not a whole week has been nothing but exhausting chaos . Discovering the truth about Lappland , accepting the white fang condition , freeing Lappland and escaping from the train .
' This all happened in just two weeks . We are not even with Lappland a full week in Vale and already there is such a commotion. '
Thinking about it I remember how just yesterday we had fun with Lappland at the party . And today she was close to killing me. To make matters worse , because of some bastards we will have to look for another place . And, no I don't blame Lappland for hurting a few fools who accosted her .
As for her killing them ....... Trusting Lappland's words I know that they really wanted to hurt her so I don't hold it against her . Especially since I know that Lappy cannot control herself . The one I should be angry at is me . I should go with her . How many situations would have been different if I had been with her . I should just wake up Yang , send her home and go with Lappland .
' Then today's events would certainly not have happened . The events of last year too . All this crap would not have happened . '
Thinking about it I shake my head , sinking deeper into my pillow .
' At least the pain pills are starting to work . '
I think to myself while raising my bandaged hand in front of my face .
' Dr Linzi as always did a good and quick job . She arrived here in the middle of the night and the downpour to do this and she didn't even take a single Lien for it . '
I think to myself watching my bandaged hand , whose fingers I bend one by one .
' Before I go to the clinic tomorrow , I must remember to take some Lien with me from the prize from the Lappy fight to buy some gift for the doctor . '
I think to myself with a slight sense of guilt . I wanted to pay but Dr. Linzi didn't even look at the money I was holding . When I reminded her of them she looked at me as if I had insulted her , then she turned off the light in the room and left .
' However, as for tomorrow's visit to the clinic . I am not sure I would like to get rid of the scar . '
Thinking about it I sigh quietly and try to stop thinking about it . Thinking will make it harder for me to fall asleep . I should have been asleep long ago but what keeps me from doing so is thinking about things and feeling dirty .
' I would like to take a bath but ......... I will probably wake her up '
I think to myself looking below me at my chest and the rest of my body covered by a certain person lying on it .
' After taking , those few pills for sedation and sleep that Dr. Linzi gave her , Lappland sleeps like she's dead . If I could not feel and hear her heartbeat I might even think she was dead . Even her breathing is so gentle as if it is not there '
I think looking at Lappland , who after taking a few pills from the doctor was now sleeping , lying on top of me , as if nothing had ever happened . Of course it could have been due to fatigue , however knowing Lappland . I know that she will really treat today's situation as if it never happened . Lappland probably never thinks about such things ...... At least I think so looking at how carefree she always is .
' You can say that this is typical Lappdumb behavior . Don't think , just live . '
I think feeling Lappland's ear rubbing against my neck . Her head resting on my chest , which is now naked because of the damage to my clothes . Lappa's body lying mostly on top of mine is so light that I can hardly feel the weight .
' Even with her size she should weigh enough for me to feel her . '
Thinking about it I remember that Lappland had just been bandaged and examined by a doctor . So if there really was something wrong Dr. Linzi must already know about it . Leaving this thought only to return to thinking about the previous one .
' Of course, we agreed with Lappland that we will no longer mention anything related to the events of a year ago , now everything should "return to normal" everything is now to slowly repair . But I do not know how it could ? Is it so easy? Apparently everything has been said and agreed , yet ......... It's just strange . '
' However, I understand that , how else would it look now ? Should we be angry with each other? Hate each other? Love each other ? How would normal people behave after such a situation . Now everything seems so " normal " . And that made it seem so unreal . One moment she almost killed me , and now she just sleeps next to me and I worry about her and consider her sleeping face with sweet . It's completely as if nothing happened . No betrayal , no fight . '
Thinking about it I look at her peaceful sleeping face located right on my exposed chest . Her naked body lying on top of me . Her arms hugging me .......... All this is strange after what happened between us . However, I am enjoying it . I desire nothing more than to make her tail wiggle with joy or straighten with pleasure . One problem that still remains is me ....... In my subconscious it seems so strange and unrealistic that I can not not think about it as Lappland seems to do .
' This is just surreal . '
Thinking about it I know that it is good that it ended like this . However, isn't it so soon . After what I did it went around practically without much harm to me . Compared to what Lappland went through, this is nothing. That's why I hesitate to fix this possible scar on my hand . Of course , in the scale of things I have done , this one scar does not matter . However , perhaps it will give me some peace of mind .
' Even though I promised myself and my mother that I would not feel sorry for myself . Although I promised to stop seeking punishment for myself , it is also not as simple as throwing away the garbage . However, I will not run away anymore . I will not waste this " happy " ending of this situation . No more of this pathetic desire to be punished . I will not let these thoughts destroy this possible new beginning . The one punishment I deserves is no punishment . '
' As long as I love her so long I will hide the guilt inside me . And so be it . The love that attached me to her will be my punishment . In the end everything that happens to you , happens because of how I treated you . Now I will do it the way it should all be from the beginning . I will treat your feelings as they should be treated . I will love you .'
' Both of you . After all the beast in you , is part of you . A part that I have helped release over the past years . Now I have to love it because it is my responsibility as the person who let it happen . So even if one day there is only a beast left of you , I will still stay by your side . I will not leave you anymore .'
With thoughts continuing to swirl in my head , I continue to observe , a delicate looking , naked body of Lappland . Bandaged body , which fills me with anxiety and makes me not want to believe Dr. Linzi about the condition of Lappland's body . So many bandages do not look normal . And explaining it with bruises and ointments does not fit . I'd like to look underneath them to make sure it's really just bruises . However ......
' But If it was anything other than that , Dr. Linzi would not have let go of Lappland so easily . Besides , I don't want to wake her up. '
Thinking about it , I gently cover us with a blanket . And I close my eyes to try to sleep . That's when I start to feel a wet sensation on my collarbone and breast . After opening my eyes , it turned out that I felt it because of Lappland , who while sniffing me deeply , began to lick my skin as well . I did not know what she was dreaming , it could have been something perverted . However it did not bother me as long as it seemed not to be a nightmare .
Hearing and feeling her nose sniffing my clothes and feeling her tongue continuing to lick my skin I began to feel a strange joy . Lappland continued her behavior until she slipped off my body to lie on her side with me still in her embrace . I, following her, also lay on my side to watch with pleasure as Lappland did not stop digging her face into my clothes .
Suddenly, however, I was hit by a strange feeling . The reason was Lappland's attack on my nipple . Sucking it like a baby , Lappland buried herself in my body without any intention of moving . Normally I would have pushed her away , considering it as overstimulating and disturbing during sleep . Besides, if she did it for too long , who knows what could happen . I know for sure that it does not seem very healthy .
' However , if it makes her feel safe or anything like that , so be it . '
Thinking about it I improve my sleeping position to support Lappland's head . Then hugging her tightly to myself , I can't help but hum the lullaby that my mother always hummed when I was little .
' What a night '
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( 7 years ago ) pov Blake
' I have to pee . '
I think , looking nervously at the crowd of faunus around me . At first I thought I could hold out until the end so I didn't bother anyone about it . But now I've been holding this for an hour and looking at my father , who is speaking on a stage , built quickly in front of the crowd . I know that the protest will continue for some time .
' But I can't hold it anymore .
I think in a panic , while crossing my legs . So making up my mind I looked around for our guardian or Lappland , but they were nowhere to be found . I also have no idea where they went . In the noise I also hear nothing other than the shouts of disgruntled faunus and my father's voice heard through the speakers . From my position at the very front of the crowd I could see him perfectly . Next to him stands my mother with a second microphone and Sienna holding the camera .
Unfortunately they seem too busy to look in my direction . I also don't want to come on stage to tell her .This made me start to panic . I had already seen the place with the toilet , but I didn't want to leave the place alone without telling anyone . Besides I don't want to go alone either .
After all , we are in the middle of the protest in Mantle under Atlas , the police have already gathered in some places and I am afraid to go out somewhere alone . However, unable to hold out anymore I made a decision and walked through the crowd to leave the protest . My small body and spontaneous request to let me through made me move through the crowd quite quickly .
When I stepped out of the crowd , I already had the hood of my winter jacket on my head to hide my ears . Without slowing down , I moved quietly towards the dust station , which I saw walking during the protest to this square . But suddenly in front of me appeared a head covered with white hair with wolf ears on top .
Staring at me a pair of wide-open , blue-silver eyes blinked several times . The blank wide smile adorning this person's face and the single scar crossing the eye , openly let me know who I was dealing with . It was Lappland , who out of the blue crossed my path almost making me wet myself . Perhaps the only thing that saved me from this was that I was used to these kinds of surprises , living with this wild card .
Lappland : " Where are you going ? "
Asked Lappy tilting her head . She was now standing in front of me with her body leaning toward me and her hands behind her back . Her tail visible behind her was waving from side to side like an excited puppy . Unfortunately this puppy was now blocking my way , and I don't have time for her games.