Blake POV
Feeling Lappland's hands , covered with rough bandages which were hiding her wounds , wandering over my body . Feeling her tongue moving between the crevices of my chest . I myself began to feel my temperature rise and my heartbeat accelerate .
I was really close to giving in to this feeling , but the pressure of time , and the reminder of the nightmare that gave me the image of Lappland covered in blood , temporarily deprived me of my apatite for the morning fun .
Blake : " Lappland....... Not now "
I said between sighs , with evident difficulty .
While letting go of her white hair covered head from my embrace . Lappland without being pushy stopped with her behavior and looked at me with those blue silver eyes of hers filled with confusion .
Lappy was now completely like a puppy asking me to let her continue . Her chin lurched between my breasts , which Lappland pressed with her hands against her cheeks from both sides , making her look even more innocent and adorable .
Nevertheless, her eyebrows were slightly raised, but I did not know whether it was surprise at my refusal, interest in my breasts, readiness for what I wanted to say or just anything else that was going on in her head.
Blake : " I have to take a bath , because we have things to do in the city today . We have to visit Dr. Linzi and I still have to go to the bookstore afterwards . "
I said , looking at Lappland who looked into my eyes and raised her eyebrows even higher .
Lappland " You still want to go to work despite the cash I won in the fight ? "
Asked Lappy reminding me of the existence of the cash that Lappland won for us at the club . Turning my head , I looked at the bag which , fortunately , was still lying in the room . This is a large sum of money, however, if we were to operate only on it until the start of our studies in Becon . Then unfortunately we would have to live on a budget .
Blake : " Lappland , this money will only be enough for food and maybe a cheap hotel . Remember that we still have to buy clothes , because you and I don't have much . Well I have practically none left . "
I said , explaining to Lappy calmly our situation . In the meantime , I could not resist , so I stroked her head .
Blake : " Besides , even in Beacon we will still need money . Admittedly , food , dust ,uniforms and books can be provided to us from the school itself as long as we apply in advance , which I also did in our applications . That said , everything else we have to buy ourselves . Writing utensils , notebooks , clothes , items like toiletries , trips out on the town , your cigarettes ......... Many things Lappland . We need cash for many things "
I said , sighing with fatigue and flustration .
' If everything was as simple as it seems . '
I thought , feeling the movement of Lappland , who moved closer to my face . Now I could feel her breath as she looked at me with those unreadable eyes of hers .
Lappland : " Should I also look for a job ? "
Asked unceremoniously Lappland while falling to her side . She was now lying next to me , looking straight at the ceiling .
Blake : " No , I'll manage . "
I said , reminding myself of an aspect from yesterday's situation . Lappland should keep her head down for a while . Finding a job would mean that she would be in one place where someone could find her .
Her personal information and photo on the new ID , which she would have to give to get a job , at least legally . Would also make it easier to find and then prosecute her . Of corse as long as her documets were not recognized as fakes which is another problem . Although I trust Tukson , if he says nothing is wrong with them then it must be so . But still , I prefer to be overly cautious than in trouble . If we can avoid using Lappland documents then we should do it .
This also reminds me that now we can no longer stay in this hotel . Which means I still have to get us a place to stay . And the sooner I do it the better .
' Fuck ........ I don't have time for that '
I think with a sigh . Changing locations won't be so easy either . According to what Dr. Linzi said we should avoid hotels in which they check personal information which leaves us with only the possibility of cheap chotels . And honestly I already prefer to sleep outdoors than in one of these places . They always smell , they are dirty , and they are so noisy that it is impossible to sleep .
' Not to mention the insects and rodents , which I might as well have in a open field . I just have to find a place safe from Grimm . '
I think jokingly , knowing that without paying a penny for a dirty and smelly room I can find better conditions in the open outdoors . But seriously , the possible trouble arising from Lappy's last night situation , began to worry me .
I will not let her be imprisoned again . Even if it means giving up becoming a hunter and running away back to my parents . My dream without Lappdumb is pointless anyway . So I can abandon it as long as it means that no one and nothing will separate us anymore .
' Well , this whole situation with this possible search for Lappland is another thing to add to my list . '
I think , a little exhausted by now . In the meantime, while I was thinking, Lappland rolled to the side, and resting her head on her hand, she looked at my face, making my attention return to her.
Lappland: " Do you think that I am not fit for work or something ? "
Asked Lappland , looking into my eyes with those eyes of hers devoid of any emotion . And well , one might have felt threatened under that cold stare , but the fact that Lappland's other hand was still kneading my breasts destroyed any intimidation .
Blake : " I didn't suggest anything like that , just ......... you need to keep your head down . Besides I just want you to enjoy your freedom . When we get to Beacon you won't have as much time to go crazy around town . "
I put it simply , while adding the other reason which has been my concern from the beginning and filled me with guilt . I just don't want Lappland to limit her newly gained freedom .
For years she took part in white fang missions and from my knowledge had little free time for herself . Then because of my fucked up and selfish person , Lappy sat locked in some cave for a year .
Now in Beacon , we will also be locked in school during class time . That's why I prefer that Lappland now run out and rest from all this to regain at least some life . I want her to recover physically and mentally as much as possible . I want her to make friends other than me.
Besides , the situation form last night made me prefer if Lappland was more of a free spirit who goes places and is hard to follow , rather than a stationary person where someone might eventually find her .
' Yes I know it doesn't quite make sense . I just don't want to close Lappland off from the outside world . '
I think , not knowing what to do anymore . As for the fact that Lappdumb in the course of exploring , may again run into the same situation as last night ?
' Well , I will limit the amount of time Lappland can be outside . Well unless she goes with someone . And after dark we will only walk together . '
I think , knowing that this is still limiting her . But I really don't do it because I want to hurt her . It's just to keep her from falling into trouble .
I also have no other idea what to do anymore in this situation ! How to ensure Lappland's safety without restricting her . How much freedom is a good amount of freedom . I don't want to lock her up but I am also afraid that eventually something will happen from which there will be no turning back .
That's why I'm going with this tactic . Like parents restricting their child . I will not take away her freedom just give her some rules and that's it . This is probably the best solution
' Besides to make it all up to her , when I get back from work , I will spend time with her . '
I think to myself , feeling suddenly as my bandaged hand , which was lying on Lappland's hip , is caught by her .
Lappland : " It still hurts ? "
Asks Lappland with interest , while putting my hand under her mouth , only to start gently biting my fingers with a smile on her face .
For a moment I was frightened . Imagining Lappland's bloody mouth , I pulled my hand from her grasp . Nervously rubbing my hand I looked at Lappland's cold face , who again looked at me with that frighteningly blank expression .
Lappland: " You know I would do anything for you ? "
Asked suddenly Lappland , again taking a position above me . The suddenness of this question knocked me out of the conversation because I was not expecting it . And while I was still processing the question , Lappland sat on my stomach leaning forward closer to my face . The weight of her whole body rested on her hands , which rested on both sides of my head .
Lappland: " So don't ever do this to me again . Don't betray my hopes . Don't hurt my feelings ...... Or at least what's left of them . "
Whispered Lappland into my cat ears , leaning in even more . Now her breasts were crushing mine . After whispering this words , she again looked into my eyes .Her nose touched mine . Our lips were close enough that my nervous breathing mixed with her excited .
And then I realized again that I was just a kitten under the paw of this wolf . My heart rate accelerated because I was overwhelmed with excitement and ......... with fear .
As for her words . I was not able to answer her , being shattered , between the premonition that in a moment the situation from yesterday will repeat . And the feeling that Lappland is about to tear off what's left of my clothes to seize what's under them .
Lappland: " I do not want to hurt you Blake . I never wanted to , but sometimes I feel that ending you would be the best solution for both of us . So please don't force me to kill you . Don't force me to hurt you . "
Said Lappy with a blank smile on her face , her eyes were strangely sad . But before I could think about it Lappland kissed me . Her body fell completely on top of me when her hands grabbed the sides of my head . The momentary fear passed in that moment , so did the kiss . Lappland moved away from me and slid off me onto her side again .
Blake : " What I did will never happen again ......... Sorry Lappy . I love you......... "
I say sincerely however before I could finish , Lappland put her hand in my mouth . I could already tell from the taste left on it that it was the hand that Lappy had just used to touch herself . But before I could respond to this in any way , however , I heard Lappland giggle .
Lappland : " Don't misuse that word Blake . Best not to use it at all . I hate when people do it ......... Words are empty , meaningless in life . Even when your heartbeat says you are telling the truth . You only do it now . That means you can still say one thing and do another when the situation changes . "
Said Lappland with irritation clearly audible in her voice . Making me realize that I may indeed start abusing some of the terms .
Lappland: " What you say can only apply to now . That means you can still lie just like anyone else . If you really think what you say then don't say it . But show it by your deeds in the most difficult situations and in everyday life . "
Said Lappland calmly, lying next to me . Her eyes were not even looking at me when she spoke . She was looking at the ceiling with a mocking smile . But although her face had a smile , her tail curled up between her legs and her ears drooped . And the realization of what it meant surprised me .
' Normally when wolves do this , they show that they are afraid , insecure or surrender to the stronger. '
I think, recalling a book about the body talk of faunus and their animal counterparts . Of corse , the first and last one can not be true . I never see Lappland being afraid or submitting to someone . This only meant that Lappland herself was unsure .
Unsure of my words . And well now hearing what Lappy said , I myself stopped being , because I know she is right . I already screwed up once . Just because I now say I won't do it again , doesn't mean anything to her .
' If something ever happened that would test our relationship , my love for Lappland . Would I still stand firm in my resolutions ? '
' Lappland is right , my words mean nothing . Not after what happened . Adam lied , everyone lied . I lied . Everyone lies or is unaware of the truth . '