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Shiela's POV
He kept calling for a while, but when he realized I wasn't answering, he ended the call .
After some time
I didn't bother looking up till I smelled it after hearing my door open and close and assuming it was Glinda or Lincoln doing it .
I hope I could stop being aroused by certain smells, and I wish I could wake up one day and detest them .
But since none of this occurred, it appears that it cannot happen again .
I keep wanting more and more of him, which makes me even more angry with myself .
He is looking down at me like I'm a statue or a model from a dream .
Are you going to say anything or are you just going to stand there and look down at me ? "
He continued to look down at me and touch his temples as I questioned .
" Or will you punish me instead ? Maybe make my hurt and damaged self even worse ? If so, I was prepared to kick him in the behind .
Despite everything I had stated, he continued to do nothing but smile like a stupid or, should I say, a crazy human .
His eyes were constantly changing hues, and his expression alternated between hurt, concern, love, and fury .
And I'm not even sure why, can you tell me ?
I tried to enter his head, but I was unable to do so, and I became frustrated by this .
He refused to let me in despite my best efforts, and his eyes were of little assistance either .
One of those times when I wish I had fully mated with him is right now .
If only the procedure had already been finished or none of the applications had been rejected .
I'll be able to assist him .
Instead of flashing, he changed his eye color and facial expression .
Don't you think you should say something ? It persisted in sharing your oxygen ! "
I said, " Squeezing my nose," with the purpose to injure him for not letting me in .
I simply wanted to let you know that I would have to hold you the entire time because of the full moon tonight .
He added while gazing down at my shirt's hem, which had just started to appear fascinating .
" What ! I can't allow you to hold me; my Mate should do that, not you . I said in a commanding manner .
Aren't I your mate ?
He asked, his expression showing bewilderment . I couldn't help but smile at his face in my head .
Ashley, this is just the beginning . I will soon make you feel just as you did for me . If not twice, I mused, grinning .
" It had to be you, of all people . We don't exist . I would rather die than have you as my other half; you are not my mate .
In the same tone he used that day, I said to Mick, " I think you've found a good life,"
You are a disgrace to werewolves in costume and will never be this pack's Luna, they said .
" Look at you, you make me sick . You were too feeble to even protect your pack .
" Starting today, don't approach me, don't look me in the eye, and never call me by my name . Don't put your toes in this room !
I Ashley Tusa turned you down as my Mate and other half . I yelled as I shoved his chest .
I know those words sounds familiar and he would be able to remember that very day that broke me .
Those words that broke my heart . Those words that came out of the guy I look up to . The guy I have trusted my future with .
" Shiela ,am really sorry for those words .
if only you can hear me out . " He said looking down .
" Shiela ,am really sorry for those words .
if only you can hear me out . "
i mimicked with the same pathetic tone he used .
" Cut the crap,you will always go back to your slut . " I said pocking his chest and crying .
The pull between us became more and more undeniable . I couldn't help but let him lay my head on his chest .
I sobbed uncontrollably as I buried my head in his chest and inhaled his aroma .
If it weren't for the fact that I needed him to fully recover and regain my strength .
I'm not going to do this, and I'm not going to live with him either .
A wolf that has been mating is required to be in their Mate's hug at least once every week .
If I don't embrace him at least once per week, I won't be able to heal up like previously, just as when I was injured .
Why ? because I'm already married .
I wouldn't have to go through this crap with someone I despise so much if I were not mated .
You seem to detest his guts while still loving his embrace . While I was shooing her away, my wolf joined in .
My biggest worry for the future is that we won't be able to completely function for a month because rejection has already occurred .
If not, both our wolf and ourselves will eventually pass away .
I turned my face up toward him as I raised my head . I cause our lips to slam lock by standing on my toes .
My entire body felt like it had been electric-shot through . . .
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To Be Continued