Jabi
I walk over to a tree and slide down to the ground. I don’t know what to do but I am not going back to the house. There is no way I will let him find me. This place is big enough to hide from him. I don’t know how I am going to get out of here but I will not go back to him.
I close my eyes as the cold wind blows through my hair. It is cold, my hands are shivering but this is all I can do. Sit and wait. There is nowhere for me to go and maybe if I am away from Lenny, I will be able to feel Darrien again. I have never been this alone in all my life.
I don’t know how much longer I am going to be able to stand it. I try to look up at the sky but the tree is blocking my view. I feel something pressing down on my legs. Even this cold is hard to bear. I don’t know how I am going to survive but I have to try.
I do not know how much time passes before but I stay on the ground until darkness hits.
I should probably find shelter.
As the night hits, it gets colder.
My eyes slowly close, the effects of the meat I ate earlier is wearing out. I need more. I am surrounded by a forest. I can look for food, hunt but I don’t even want to. I just want to go home and I know that complaining and whining about it won’t get me home. I actually have to do something about it.
I just wish I knew what to do.
I do not know how long I stay out there. I shiver and slowly, I feel my eyes drift off. I shake my head because I can’t sleep right now.
My wolf is crying, as I try to be strong right now.
let me out?
My wolf urges me. I don’t even know if I have the energy to turn right now. I close my eyes and think about it. Trying my best to do what he asked. Slowly, I feel the change but instead of the pain that comes from turning, I see a bright light. One so bright that it feels like my wolf is coming 0out of me. My eyes are open wide, there is confusion on my face as I see my wolf burst out of me in a bright light. I am so confused.
Why is this happening?
I shake my head and try to understand what the hell is happening but before I can even comprehend this, it disappears right in front of my eyes and I blackout.
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I open my eyes and i find myself in the same place. The same tree. The same forest. The same air but the one thing that is different is the absence of my wolf. I stand up and now, the sky is dark. it is nighttime and now I even feel more alone. There is so much confusion in my head right now. I don’t even understand how this is even possible. I don’t understand where my wolf is right now.
I look around and I can see the stars but I can’t even make out a clear view. The tree, the ground, the leaves, the forest, they are all too blurry. All I feel is this horrible loneliness.
The cold hits me again and it is even harder than the first time. I shiver against the cold,
it hurts so bad, but I force myself to grit my teeth against the throbbing pain and I start to move.
I hold on and continue walking because I need to find somewhere to pass the night. I don’t even know what I am doing anymore. I don’t even know how my wolf left me. How does something that is part of me, just leave. I should be able to feel my wolf but there is not even a slight
sensation of its presence.
I continue walking on the cold ground. I trudge through the forest. The cold is getting worse and worse. I am constantly shivering but I keep moving.
I look around for a place to get shelter. I don’t want to spend the night in the open. It could be colder than this and I don’t want to spend my night outside in the open.
I start to look for a cave or a shelter or somewhere to rest and I find a small cave behind a tree. I can’t see anything but I am pretty sure this is the place where I will rest. I feel like I am finally safe from Lenny. I can hide and he won’t be able to find me. I will be safe in the cave.
I stumble into the cave and open my eyes. This cave is tiny but I manage to find a spot to rest on. I sit down and I am shaking. I have to come up with a plan. I don’t want to die in this cave. I am not ready to say goodbye to Darrien. Our life is just beginning.
I will get us out of here.
I sit up as I hear him.
Now I am so sure that my wolf is not inside me but that doesn’t mean he is gone. Okay, yeah maybe he is not inside me right now but I know that he is going to help me. I know that he is going to bring my connection back with Darrien.
Maybe it is for the best that he is not inside me right now.
I don’t think I will be able to get off this island on my own.
There is literally nowhere else to go.
Lenny planned it all this way. He didn’t want me to have a way to escape. Maybe he thinks he is going to win this fight but I will not give up. I will trust my wolf and the people around me.
I will stay strong.