I never considered life to be so bleak, but if I had known that this would be my final day on earth, I would have made amends.
I was hoping that after all the wrongs and bad things I had done, God would still have mercy on me. I walked down the road to get some drugs for my mother; she needed some drugs to help her calm down a bit. If the walls could speak to me, I would never have left home.
I had the distinct impression that I was constantly being watched, but I had no idea it was this serious.
I wished this world would swallow me whole and I would never be heard from again, but the look at me thing isn't working and I felt as though everyone was against me, but what could I do or say?
After I obtained the drugs and was returning home, a car pulled out and two men exited, and I was dragged inside. I saw another guy, but his face was obscured by a handkerchief, and before I knew it, everything had turned black.
I awoke and found myself tied and in an unknown location. I was terrified by the three men standing close to me after they removed their masks. I was unfamiliar with two of the men, but the last one surprised me.
John was the name that came out of my mouth; I begged him to let me go but it was in vain; he also came to me and said how I insulted him and made a mockery of him; I was attempting to convey to him that I never desired anything like that but he shut me up.
He pulled out a gun and pointed it at my face, he told me to keep shut and do as he said, he called out two other guys to take me out but I never got the chance to understand what that meant but after a few seconds I understood, they both pulled out my cloth and I was raped, it was not even enough John rape me I cried because I had lost my woman pride, I hoped that after all the raping I would be left alone but I was wrong, He came down to my level and asked me to say one final word before I left this earth; I looked up at him and picked up a sand and said, I will return for vengeance because my time on earth has not yet ended; I will ensure you suffer and beg for mercy; you and your friends will never know peace.
You will gain no peace by murdering a pure heart that knows nothing about this world except that of her parent.
Joy will be far away from all of you, but I promise I will return.
Following that, I poured the sand away, and he smiled and pulled the trigger, and everything went black.
I promise I will return; my mission to make my mother smile is not yet complete; I have never had the opportunity to tell her I love her; I have never asked her to forgive me for using my body to earn money.
I never had the chance to express to her how much I want to end everything just to make her smile; please God forgive me and grant me a second chance to prove my innocence; grant me the life you took from others; I am sorry God.
John I will return.